[M.M.X.I.V. 251 / Guest post from Timiarah] The Road to Recovery

As I mentioned a few weeks ago, I was nominated for the Very Inspiring Blogger award by Timiarah.  However, as I am not a fan of the “pass-it-on” awards when many of the blogs that I follow are Award-Free, I instead invited her to write a guest post for my blog.  On my blog, I will often write tangentially or directly about Asperger syndrome, and so I have empathy for those that have other types of mental irregularities.  (Of course, that doesn’t mean that I have developed an effective sense of sympathy…)

I first found out about Timiarah’s blog after my “Advertisement jingles” post, and was fascinated by her writings of her life and thoughts on her blog.  She often writes in the third person on first-person topics, which does put a different perspective on things!

Without further ado, here is the guest post!  I hope you enjoy it!


The patient had her second visit with her therapist today. She no longer had anxiety about speaking with Mrs. G because they had broken the ice during the last session. Today’s session covered topics such as child rearing, love, healing and the disability process. The patient sometimes has the desire to get a job in the corporate world, but she has concluded that the intermittent urge is nothing more than a manic “craving.” She has a long history of obtaining jobs with full force and supercharged engines, and then losing those jobs via various apparent bipolar disorder symptoms.
 Her healing needs to continue from the comforts of her home. She is unable to be stable (hey that rhymed) in any position at this time, especially one that exists in the corporate world. Twenty-five years of multiple jobs and failed work history says it all.

The patient discussed her son and his possible ADHD. She and the ex both have bipolar disorder, and their child is exhibiting symptoms of ADHD. She has not taken him in for a diagnosis because she is afraid of labels and medications. She does not believe that children should take psychiatric medications since they are so dangerous, and sometimes, unhelpful. Mrs. G advised her to take him for a diagnosis so that she would at least know what she was working with and obtain the tools to help mold him as best she can.

They discussed love for a few minutes, but the patient eventually got upset. She still hurts over the pain and loss of her most recent ex. She still feels sad and slightly bitter about the lies and the head games he played. She still feels robbed of her chance to have a complete family unit. Therefore, her healing is not finished.

The good thing is that the patient did learn to be happy on her own. She broke the love addiction and the obsessive continuation of communications she had with her ex. She learned that she
did not need his company to see a good movie or to have a good meal. She realized that she did not have to accept anything less than a full commitment from a man. Additionally, she found excitement in her new book series. She can go there whenever she needs to live in a fictional world.

The patient learned
never again to share a physical connection with a man, as men do not understand that lovemaking comes from women’s hearts. To them, sex is just an animalistic ritual, and sharing that physical bond has nothing to do with love. Bonding physically with a man before marriage is a mistake that has the consequences of long-term deceit and eventual abandonment. Next time she won’t be so affectionate. Abstinence all the way.
Today is the two-hundred and fifty-first day of M.M.X.I.V.  That makes thirty-five weeks and six days.
Today is the fifty-sixth day of the Character Building Trial.  That makes eight weeks.

2 thoughts on “[M.M.X.I.V. 251 / Guest post from Timiarah] The Road to Recovery

  1. A fascinating piece of writing, Noah – thank you for sharing her world view with us. The third person account is curiously effective; it both deadens and emphasises.


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