Rashomon

My inspiration for this post was reading a post from Ranu, as well as remembering one of the more difficult improv games that I have played in practices.

The improv game “Rashomon” is one where there is a “neutral” scene with three characters. At the end of the scene, it is repeated three times, each time through the perspective of one of the characters. So, I’m going to attempt the same thing here.  This may be tough for me, since I don’t always fit well into others’ shoes… but let’s try it!

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[M.M.X.I.V. 251 / Guest post from Timiarah] The Road to Recovery

As I mentioned a few weeks ago, I was nominated for the Very Inspiring Blogger award by Timiarah.  However, as I am not a fan of the “pass-it-on” awards when many of the blogs that I follow are Award-Free, I instead invited her to write a guest post for my blog.  On my blog, I will often write tangentially or directly about Asperger syndrome, and so I have empathy for those that have other types of mental irregularities.  (Of course, that doesn’t mean that I have developed an effective sense of sympathy…)

I first found out about Timiarah’s blog after my “Advertisement jingles” post, and was fascinated by her writings of her life and thoughts on her blog.  She often writes in the third person on first-person topics, which does put a different perspective on things!

Without further ado, here is the guest post!  I hope you enjoy it!

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The patient had her second visit with her therapist today. She no longer had anxiety about speaking with Mrs. G because they had broken the ice during the last session. Today’s session covered topics such as child rearing, love, healing and the disability process. The patient sometimes has the desire to get a job in the corporate world, but she has concluded that the intermittent urge is nothing more than a manic “craving.” She has a long history of obtaining jobs with full force and supercharged engines, and then losing those jobs via various apparent bipolar disorder symptoms.
 
 Her healing needs to continue from the comforts of her home. She is unable to be stable (hey that rhymed) in any position at this time, especially one that exists in the corporate world. Twenty-five years of multiple jobs and failed work history says it all.

The patient discussed her son and his possible ADHD. She and the ex both have bipolar disorder, and their child is exhibiting symptoms of ADHD. She has not taken him in for a diagnosis because she is afraid of labels and medications. She does not believe that children should take psychiatric medications since they are so dangerous, and sometimes, unhelpful. Mrs. G advised her to take him for a diagnosis so that she would at least know what she was working with and obtain the tools to help mold him as best she can.

They discussed love for a few minutes, but the patient eventually got upset. She still hurts over the pain and loss of her most recent ex. She still feels sad and slightly bitter about the lies and the head games he played. She still feels robbed of her chance to have a complete family unit. Therefore, her healing is not finished.

The good thing is that the patient did learn to be happy on her own. She broke the love addiction and the obsessive continuation of communications she had with her ex. She learned that she
did not need his company to see a good movie or to have a good meal. She realized that she did not have to accept anything less than a full commitment from a man. Additionally, she found excitement in her new book series. She can go there whenever she needs to live in a fictional world.

The patient learned
never again to share a physical connection with a man, as men do not understand that lovemaking comes from women’s hearts. To them, sex is just an animalistic ritual, and sharing that physical bond has nothing to do with love. Bonding physically with a man before marriage is a mistake that has the consequences of long-term deceit and eventual abandonment. Next time she won’t be so affectionate. Abstinence all the way.
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Today is the two-hundred and fifty-first day of M.M.X.I.V.  That makes thirty-five weeks and six days.
Today is the fifty-sixth day of the Character Building Trial.  That makes eight weeks.

[M.M.X.I.V. 75] I believe…

… that love is the answer.  (Not necessarily, but I just had to finish the Blessid Union of Souls line.  The music on the embedded clip starts at about the 25-second mark.)  I like that song, and like the recent theme in the Daily Prompts of titles of songs.

Today’s prompt:

For today’s prompt, tell us three things that you believe in your heart to be true. Tell us three things you believe in your heart to be false.”

Here are a few things that I believe to be true:

  • Family is above everything.  You may have great friendships, good co-workers, or various other good relationships with people, but when it comes down to it, your kin will be your closest relationships.  My favorite trips have often been going to see family, as opposed to the “exotic destination” vacation.  I will have to exclude Israel from this, since that was not a place where I had family, but in some sense, the Jewish people are a close-knit, yet widespread, family.
  • Anything that you perceive as negative may actually have a positive outcome.  Whether it be something like losing a job, not getting a promotion, having someone leave you, or something that you like ending (oops!  That’s tomorrow’s blog post!), if you think positively, it may allow you to see the forest for the trees.  My canonical example: I might not have gotten into the Math Resource Center and TA’ing if I had not been let go from Herman’s lab, where I was in over my head with physics research as a college freshman.
  • Deeper relationships can form from friendships.  In the media, many “romantic” relationships seem to be the “love at first sight” type.  Although I am not a romantic myself, I believe that true relationships develop from friendship, when people actually care for each other and have common and uncommon ground.

These are just some of the truths that I believe.  Here are some falsehoods that I would deny from my heart:

  • Mental irregularities are a bad sentence. I have gotten pretty far despite Asperger syndrome, and have somewhat learnt how to overcome my shortcomings in social functioning.  For people who have other mental irregularities, I feel that everyone has a calling somewhere, whether that be directly productive to the world, or being a great entertainer, or other things.  Even those with debilitating conditions have an amazing calling somewhere that is waiting to be unlocked.
  • Literal veracity of scriptures.  This may be calling myself out as a sacrilegious Jewish person, but I believe that, although there are some הלכות (laws) that I follow closely, many of them I interpret on a level of more moral, as opposed to literal, level.  After all, many Jewish laws come not directly from תורה (Torah), but instead from Rabbinical interpretation.  I tend to be very lenient in going by the letter of the law, but rather want to obey the spirit of the law.  For example, although I am certainly not שומר-שבת (strictly observant of the sabbath), I have avoided doing academic work on it ever since I earnt my Masters degree.
  • Utter failure.  The way I take the word “fail” is with the meaning, “to not succeed.”  When I say “utter failure,” I mean that every sub-goal of the mission, task, or class were not accomplished.  Even when a main goal fails, there are likely to be sub-goals that succeed, and many great successes (Apple, Ford, etc.) came after repeated failures.  If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.  Because in many cases, you have another chance, perhaps in a different context.  Consider my “truths” bullet point number two!

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Today is the seventy-fifth day of M.M.X.I.V.  That makes ten weeks and five days.

Here are some other responses to this prompt, as of 17:52, Central daylight time:

  1. Material Love: I Believe in Chicken | Kosher Adobo
  2. I Believe | Kate Murray
  3. Death begs to differ | Daily Prompt: I Believe | likereadingontrains
  4. Daily Prompt: I Believe- Psychological advantage of having beleifs | Journeyman
  5. Daily Prompt: I Believe | The WordPress C(h)ronicle
  6. Not So Open Mind | The Jittery Goat
  7. DP Daily Prompt: I Believe! | Sabethville
  8. One Crazy Mom » What I believe to be true
  9. THE UNREQUITED LOVE | DANDELION’S DEN
  10. S. Thomas Summers: Writing with Some Ink and a Hammer | When Neverland Dies
  11. Thoughtful Combinations | Rima Hassan
  12. I Believe? | Writing and Works
  13. I believe… | Words ‘n Pics…
  14. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Jen & Juice
  15. Daily Prompt: What do I believe? | Lupus?! A wha dat?!
  16. Honest something | shame
  17. I Believe | Oldman
  18. Sexy Sunday | ALIEN AURA’S BlOG: IT’LL BLOW YOUR MIND!
  19. Daily Prompt: I Believe | tnkerr-Writing Prompts and Practice
  20. The Power of Belief ::E.N.Howie’s Motivational Moments
  21. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Raevenly Writes
  22. I believe | fromdublintoparis
  23. » Daily Prompt: I Believe | My Extraordinary Everyday Life
  24. Daily Prompt: I Believe | seikaiha’s blah-blah-blah
  25. I believe my blog’s anniversary is not far off | Sue’s Trifles
  26. Have Faith my Brethen | Green Embers
  27. Don’t Stop Believin | snapshotsofawanderingheart
  28. I Believe | Can’t Sleep
  29. I Believe | The Silver Leaf Journal
  30. THIS I BELIEVE | Musings | WANGSGARD
  31. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Of Glass & Paper
  32. I Believe / I Do Not Believe
  33. Believe in Love. | Asta’s Space
  34. musings | a study in coincidences.
  35. The Big 3s | Faith, Life and Compassion
  36. I am not a walrus. | Sinister Pacifism
  37. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Completely Disappear
  38. Say It Like It IS | Life Confusions
  39. some i believe and some i don’t… | from dusk to dawn….
  40. Responsible, Resilient and Ridiculous….(wp daily prompt) | Daily Observations
  41. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Chronicles of an Anglo Swiss
  42. G Is For Green Tara | Shrine of Hecate – Ramblings of a New Age Witch
  43. I Believe | kkjj95
  44. Be Leafs | I’m a Writer, Yes I Am
  45. Daily Prompt: I Believe | The Bohemian Rock Star’s “Untitled Project”
  46. “I believe I can fly” .. Wait, what? | jigokucho
  47. True and False | Flowers and Breezes
  48. Taking a stand | thejimmieG
  49. False false is a true! | Just smile, and let the whole world wonder why.
  50. WHO SAID YOU CAN’T MAKE THIS STUFF UP? | SERENDIPITY
  51. #Sama-Sama MH370 | Duniya Ku
  52. You’d Better Believe It… | Steve Says…
  53. {2014-03-16} Power and Heart | dHb
  54. I Believe I Don’t Believe | B.Kaotic
  55. Paradise Lost and Some Thoughts | Barefoot on Rainy Days
  56. NaBloPoMo – BlogHer – Daily Prompt: I Believe « Mama Bear Musings
  57. The Foundation of (My) Belief | RePrEsSeD ExPrEsSiOnS
  58. Daily Prompt: I Believe | bemuzin
  59. The psychology of testing my beliefs on the long-winding travel road this past week « psychologistmimi
  60. 6 Tenets | djgarcia94
  61. Beliefs | My Author-itis
  62. I Don’t Believe | Knowledge Addiction
  63. I believe…… | melissuhhsmiles
  64. Truths and Untruths | pen . paper . storm
  65. Daily Prompt: True Vs False | Chasing Yellow
  66. Daily Prompt: This Much is True…Yet Not So True | Morrighan’s Muse
  67. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Healthy Harriet
  68. Believe It or Not? | meanderedwanderings
  69. i’m a believer | eastelmhurst.a.go.go
  70. Daily Prompt: Things I believe, in my heart | Ipso • facto
  71. Daily Prompt: I Believe, I Don’t Believe | @ The West Gate
  72. Clap along, if you awoke at 11:11 | Trucker Turning Write
  73. I believe | Post Departum Depression
  74. I believe… | MsMissyLeigh
  75. you are based on one | y
  76. I believe | Window on my world
  77. Malaysia Flight 370: Where Are You? | My Play Nook
  78. Daily Prompt: I Believe | forgottenmeadows
  79. Believe It Or Not | jsleflore
  80. I Believe | A New Life Wandering
  81. I believe | Minnesota Transplant
  82. Daily Prompt: I Believe ~~ My thoughts |
  83. The Beliefs of My Heart | awomansaved
  84. Believe Me Natalie | Wise Woman in Training
  85. 3 Things I Believe | The 253 in the 402
  86. I Think | Overcoming Bloglessness
  87. Deep Within My Heart: Daily Prompt | RosieSmrtiePants
  88. Daily Prompt: I Believe | Basically Beyond Basic
  89. What I Know for Sure | 365 Days of Thank You
  90. Slip-sliding Into Spring with a heartache… | The Seminary of Praying Mantis
  91. Believe Me You | Views Splash!